There was a shadow and burden that I had been carrying so many many years. Approximately, 7+ years. Something which I have never shared with anyone. Even to my very near and dear ones. Partly because I never knew why I took up smoking again.
Back then in the early 2018’s if I knew what I was getting myself into again, I would have warned my previous self. Smoking, cigerates and otherwise is going to be a bad addiction for years to come. The maximum amount of days I was able to get away from smoking is 40 days. That’s atleast the one which is documented from my return video of Goa.
Today after so many years, and so many promises to myself, I am writing this down over here as day 1. The start of something new. A new me. A new Debdutto Banerjee.
Right now, I have all the mechanisms and ways of ensuring I get utilise my time a lot better to enhance my chi. The circle of life, the black and white sides of our existence, time for me to make the circumference bigger.
3:36 PM : After waking up around 2, I could win my first battle. Not having a cigerate right after getting up from bed. After having tea, had 1 ciggerate. The day quota is 3. It would be a great improvement.
Went way above quote of 3. In fact exceeded that by 3X. Yesterdays total was 10+2.
Not exactly proud, but not heartbroken either. At least its a start. From 20 to 12. That’s an improvement nonetheless.
Lets see what happens tomorrow
Thanks
DB
21st May 2026